Trying So Hard Not To Cry

My attention was grabbed early this morning by an article in

INC. magazine entititled “Trying So Hard Not To Cry.” The article

chronicles the story of Bill Murphy Jr. and his one day journey in

his worst job ever.  When interviewed on CBS Sunday Morning about that

day, the reporter noticed on his notes from that terrible day the words, “Trying

so hard not to cry.”  I’VE BEEN THERE. So have you.  Sadly, I find

myself there all too many times these days.  It comes when I turn on

the news. One network. I’m there. The other network, same feelings.

It’s all based on that 4 letter word that seems to run our WORLD these days.

H A T E .

I’m TRYING and TRYING to just run my life on LOVE 24/7 during these times.

Politics?  Default to LOVE . Religion? Default to LOVE. Sports?  Same…..

I don’t know if I’m making any difference or not, but I’m dang sure gonna try.

Because I’m TIRED of feeling like I’m trying so hard not to……You know what.



A faster way to breakthrough

“My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of him who sent me and to finish his work.” (John 4:34)

Fasting is a Biblical practice that is still very much applicable today. Have you ever needed clarityfor a decision you were trying to make? Have you ever felt a need to discern God’s will for your next step in life?

Fasting is a spiritual discipline that allows us to disconnect from something routine (such as food, technology or a daily habit), and replace that timewith connecting with God.

For example, if you are fasting from social media, then every time you find yourself wanting to scroll through a newsfeed, you would redirect your focusto tuning-in to God’s voice instead. Whether that be through prayer, listening to an uplifting song or podcast, or reading the Scriptures, the goal of fasting is to spend more time being aware of God’s presence.

I have heard story after story of people who have experienced breakthroughs when fasting; I know I have in my personal life. Not only does this practice help us become more disciplined, but it shows God that we are taking the time to put Him above all else.

If you’ve been looking for an answer—or simply a nudge in the next right direction—give fasting a try. To lose is to gain after all.


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Worship through worry

“He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.” Psalm 40:3

Singing is probably the last thing you want to think about doing when walking through a hard time…but it just may be the solution to your breakthrough.

The Bible tells many stories of battles fought between God’s people and enemy armies. It’s interesting to learn that it was common for God’s army to send forth worshippers first, to show that God was fighting on their behalf.

Worship is a weapon of warfare when it comes to fighting our spiritual battles. It is an act of surrender, and it tells God that despite our circumstances, we believe that He is good and still in control.

As humans made in the image of God, we’ve been given the incredible ability to open our mouths and speak: “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” (Proverbs 18:21) Being made in the image of the Creator, we too have the power to create the lives we want to live through the words we speak into existence.

Next time you’re feeling overcome with anxiety, fear or doubt, choose to speak life over yourself by “singing to the Lord a new song.” (Psalm 96:1) You’ll be surprised to find yourself walking in victory…for the enemy doesn’t have a chance when he knows who fights on your behalf.  

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Roots that run deep

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD And whose trust is the LORD. ‘For he will be like a tree planted by the water, That extends its roots by a stream And will not fear when the heat comes; But its leaves will be green, And it will not be anxious in a year of drought Nor cease to yield fruit.’” (Jeremiah 17:7-8)

Trees are amazing to watch. Whether their leaves are falling in Autumn, or they stand completely bare in winter, their stance remains upright and outstretched—branches lifted high in praise. That’s what we can look like through every season of our life when we have roots that run deep.

Deep roots come from grounding ourselves in the the truth of what God has spoken over us and our lives…they come from anchoring ourselves to God and to His Word. In Matthew 7, Jesus says that anyone who listens and follows his teaching is like a person who builds his house on solid rock: a solid foundation… 

“Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.” (Matthew 7:25-27)

Seasons come and go, but God’s word remains the same. His promises, His wisdom and His truth are the only “constants” guaranteed in this chaotic and unpredictable life. Take time to know God and to hear Him; take time to read his Word. That’s how roots grow deepest, and that’s the key to arms raised high, whether leaves flourish or fall. 
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Ask and receive

Think of all of the relationships in your life. Would any of them sustain if one person did all the talking?

It works the same with our relationship with God.

I think we do most of the talking when it comes to communicating with God. We use our prayer time to ask Him for what we need or want…treating Him more like a genie in a bottle as opposed to a friend who has something to say, too; and that’s not a relationship.

Have you ever taken the time to ask God what He would like to say to you? I speak from experience when I say it’s a risk worth taking…

It was this time about five years ago when I asked God to speak to me. I was on vacation at the beach for Labor Day weekend; it was my first year out of college. I was asking God to direct the next steps of my career.

I remember walking one morning in the park, and as I walked I prayed: “God, speak to me whatever you want me to hear right now, in this moment.”

As I walked, something caught my attention from the corner of my eye. It looked like a giant birdhouse, but as I got closer I noticed it was a “Free Library.” (You could take a book for free and drop books off for others.) When I opened the little latch to peek inside, I stood frozen.

Resting on the shelf in front of all the books was a little green slip of construction paper that was cut into the shape of a bookmark. There were two messages written on the front, but the first word that stood out to me immediately was MY NAME, “Jordan,” handwritten right there!

The first message said,

“God loves you 


And then…written below it…was a second message:

“You can do anything.” 

I could not move as I stared at this little green slip of paper handwritten just for me. Knowing the prayer I had just prayed—a prayer asking God to speak whatever he needed me to hear—and then receiving this personal note, completely confirmed to me that God was with me.

Through those two simple statements, God was telling me that it didn’t matter what I was going to “do.” All that mattered was that I knew He was with me and that He loved me; and because of that, I’d be able to accomplish whatever lied ahead.

As I look back, I realize how important that message has been throughout these past 5 years. In times of doubt and uncertainty, I’ve been able to go back and remember what God spoke over my life that day in the park.

But only because I asked.

Don’t miss out on what God wants to say speak to you. It may not be through a note on a green slip of paper…but it may be through the lyrics of a song that happens to play at just the right time. It may be through the words of a friend or family member; or it may be through the beauty of nature that surrounds us everyday.

The point is, don’t miss out because you haven’t asked. You never know what God is waiting to tell you.




Dwell in joy

“The joy of the Lord is my strength.” Nehemiah 8:10 

I think it’s common to hear the verse, “the Joy of the Lord is my strength,” but do we ever take the time to think of what that truly means? 

It seems as if joy is disappearing from our society. Depression, suicide and anxiety are the most-talked about topics; it seems as if everything…and everyone…have become burdened by a spirit of heaviness.

As someone who has always enjoyed listening to motivational speakers, I grew up with an understanding of the power of our thoughts and words. Our thoughts become our words, and our words translate into action, and as I’ve grown in the Word, I’ve found that teaching to be biblically sound: 

-“Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.”(Matt 12:34)
-“Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” (Proverbs 4:23) 

We were created to be both spiritual and physical. Yes, we are humans—we have fleshly desires, natural circumstances and issues of the world that we will always contend with—but we also have the ability to accept the Spirit of Jesus within us: the Holy Spirit. That spirit gives us the power and strength to surrender all forms of heaviness and opposition to God so that we can live victoriously. 

When the Bible refers to the “fruit of the spirit,” it’s talking about the gifts we’re given through the Holy Spirt to defeat everything that tries to stop us from living abundantly in Christ. Joy is one of those gifts. 

Joy isn’t simply being happy; for happiness is merely an emotion. (Which means it comes and goes with circumstances.) Joy on the other hand, is steadfast and spiritual. It resounds inside of you regardless of your circumstances. It anchors you to peace amidst any storm life throws your way, because it comes from an unshakeable God. Joy allows you to laugh without fear of the future and smile when you want to cry…because you know you are “to count it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” (James 1:2-3). 

Your challenge this week is to smile when you don’t quite feel like it or say something positive about a situation that looks impossible. Joy is your weapon, but you must take hold of it, first.  

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Reclaim your inner child

“But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.” 1 Corinthians 1:27

When we take the time to read the scriptures, we begin to realize that the Kingdom of God operates entirely differently then our earthly world. Jesus tells us that the weak are strong, the last are first, and the child-like are the wise.  

In Matthew 18:3 He says: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.’” Matthew 18:3

Have you ever stopped to think about what this truly means? Have you taken the time to ask yourself what having childlike faith could look like in your life? Jesus isn’t telling us to be “childish;” He’s telling us to be “childlike”…and there’s a difference.

Having childlike faith is having the ability to trust in God as a child trusts his father—knowing that whatever he asks for is taken care of.

Having childlike faith is having the courage to act in obedience to whatever God says to do, because you know that He will provide everything you need to do it.

Having childlike faith is being able to push past the fear of our circumstances, because we simply believe that God’s promises are true. 

Children simply believe because their parent “says so.” Can we live our lives with boldness, audacious faith and in peace just because we trust that what God says is true? 

I challenge you today to reclaim your inner-child. Next time the world tries to tell you that your dreams are impossible, your past is too dark to overcome, or that your circumstances are overwhelming, close your eyes…ask your Father to speak His Truth into your heart…and then simply believe because God says so.

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